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>je ne sais pas
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Well, I am 20 years old now. I don't even know what to do with myself. I feel like I've always had some image of what I would be like when I'm "older", but I have no idea how anything will end up. I'm pretty sure I need to move out of Michigan though. The way I see it, the ships going down, and I need to jump out soon.

For my birthday, I got a bunch of food, a new shirt, and my favorite present so far, some 30mg Ritalin LA. Never taken Ritalin before, or any type of pill in fact, but I've been eager to see what kind of effects they have on me and how I can use it to my advantage. I've heard mixed reactions to this stuff, everything from turning kids to emotionless zombies, destroying imaginations, and antisocial behaviour, yet also great bursts of concentration, creative control, and memory. I'll probably try the first experiment next week.