Pass the Past

lets get nostalgic
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With whatever I have right now, it leaves a hell of a lot to be desired. I'm missing something in my life, and it ruins everything. Sure, I can seem happy, but I still don't think that I've got it all. Everyone else seems to have all their shit figured out and ready to go, while I sit here wondering what the hell to do with myself, and how to finally go about doing it.

Yeah, I fucking already know that for pretty much everyone out there it's not an easy ride, but it's just the fact that this illusion exists and is so powerful all the time. I know for a fact that things aren't perfect for others, especially after a few days ago, but I still can't help but want to hate the world for now. Yeah, life isn't fair, nothings fair, blah blah blah. If anyone knows the way the world functions, its going to be me since I'm a no nonsense kinda guy when it comes to life.

Still, I fell like shit. I feel lonely. I feel weak. I feel vulnerable. I feel like theres something terribly fucked up. It isn't right. I like to brush stuff off and keep on going in my old humorous, no nonsense, spur of the moment ways, but I feel stuck now, trapped. Nothing seems right. Like puzzle pieces just forced together, it just doesn't mesh. Looking back at the previous year, I'd love to think that I'm at an all time low, and I probably am. I need more people in my life, and not just anybody, but as much as I hate to admit it, I really doubt that I can get things the way they were forever, or ever again.

Mrs. Mystery!

[adult swim]
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ITS THE UFOS!
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Work until 11ish T_T
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Funny thing today. I was leaving work at 11:20pm or so, and as I was crossing the street and turning the corner, the driver of the car stopped at the light quickly turned her head, eyes all lit up, and started waving at me all excited. I just kind of smiled and waved back since my obviously slow mind didn't make the connection that it was someone who seemed to have known me. A second later though, it finally occurred that maybe they knew me and wanted to say "hello" or something, but I figured it was too late for me to turn around and walk back to the car- besides, it was a traffic stop and they were probably pulling away in a couple seconds anyway.

Now, I tried to figure out who it was, and judging from the way her hair looked curled, I instantly assumed it was one friend of mine. The hair color matched, the curls, possibly the car, the location, it all seemed pretty probable to me. Of course, it wasn't her. She had no idea what I was talking about. Okay then, so who the hell was it? I mean, I don't really know of anyone else that looked like that, even though I guess that it was dark and I couldn't really make out who it was. Still, I don't have a call, email, facebook comment, text, or any of that other stuff from whoever this was. I know it's not necessary for them to do that, but it tends to happen that if you bump into people for whatever reason, they usually happen to leave you some sort of message about how they saw you. You know, in case anything that happened before two hours ago was suddenly erased from memory?

Maybe I'll find out tomorrow. Maybe it was just some nice person trying to be friendly to someone they don't even know. Until then, I'll be losing sleep over this, cause what if it was a friend and they saw me brush them off like that since I really honestly didn't even comprehend what the hell was going on until it was too late? I'm sure it's not going to be that drastic, but still, crazier stuff has happened.

So Little To Do, So Much Time

blaze a pound a weed, six days up out tha week

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My little holiday break here has been pretty funny. I mean, I have had little nothing to commit to. Shopping- done online, work- I only work part time, and I don't have school since the semester ended, Family- not so much, Friends- keep in mind that Dearborn is hellishly boring and that I'm the only one with a car. It's kind of difficult to go out and have fun with people without slowly becoming the "drive me places" bitch. The one thing that I said I wanted to accomplish over these couple of weeks was to finally complete Bioshock in time for getting The Orange Box on the 25th.

I started my game over fresh since I was only a couple hours in, and going back, I missed a hell of a lot of stuff. I walked around for almost 40 minutes yesterday in the game doing stuff that I completely skipped over for whatever reason. Found 2 new tonics, tons of ammo and money (and I remember being pissed because I never had any ammo in my first try through), and a lot of people to kill. It was pretty damn satisfying.

Maybe I should go play it now instead of sit around writing?

Awesome New Stuff!

dR. dRE PRESENtS dETOX
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So, the past few days were filled with some unexpected surprises that really made me happy.

First and foremost was a trailer for a Speed Racer movie made by the Wachowski brothers. It's at speedracerthemovie.com . To be honest, I'm not expecting a hell of a lot from this movie, but I'm still excited for the whole idea.

Second, Dr. Dre apparently set his final album Detox to be released this June. I'm fucking elated. I've been waiting years for this album. As far as I'm concerned, he's the best goddamn rapper/producer out there by a long shot. And I mean a really long shot, especially with the crap that's been passing for music lately. I'll be there at midnight if at all possible to pick it up and rock out for the rest of the eternity.

Other than those, I've only got class up to this Friday and I'm off the hook for break. I beat Quake4 earlier today, so that just leaves me with completing Bioshock before Xmas if at all possible since when I get the Orange Box I'll be pretty occupied. Combine that with reading Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, plus whatever else comes my way along with stuff like Super Mario Galaxy, it should be a fun time.

Taking Shots

OMFG TILA TEQUILA IS ON!!
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As much as I find most of television to be absolute, unwatchable crap these days, especially MTV, VH1, G4, and FOX, I can't help but watch A Shot at Love with Tila Tequila. I don't know why. I hate reality TV. I don't think MTV is a very good network either, but something about this show has me hooked. It fucking pisses me off, but just because I feel like a hypocrite for liking it so much.

I guess I do like the show a bit, but what really makes it fun for me is just sitting down with a few friends, using their tivo, and replaying people getting punched in the face or that hard drug using, crack whore Amanda's facial expressions. Seriously, her facial features are grotesque with a mangled set of lips, wrinkled face, and bugged out eyes. She always looks like shes strung out on something hard. Maybe she does rails of coke between shots. I don't know. But it seems likely.

Pretty!

school
trying to do a goddamn paper
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So I woke up at 5:50am today to register for classes. Apparently, tomorrow is the registration date, so I get to repeat the misery all over again! I was so tired this morning that I just slept through my class from 10:20-11:10. I know it's bad, but I would have literally just slept the whole time due to exhaustion. So I woke up around 11:30, took care of stuff, and then drove to school for my art history class. It was canceled. Damn it. I forgot to check my e-mail this one time, and I go to school for nothing.

So I got to come home and type a final paper/presentation for my psychology class. It's not long, and it was a really easy paper, but of course I procrastinated until now to do it. I started typing a 3 paged, double spaced paper at around 2pm. I finished around 7:45. Needless to say I have severe ADD and a horrible StumbleUpon addiction. Some good did come from this however, which was my discovery of the Unreal Tournament 3 demo.

This game looks so pretty, it's awesome. I can max it no problem, and everything is so fast and fluid. Being a big Quake fan, I like the game play a helluva lot too. The weapons are interesting, the alternate firing modes are cool, the physics are nice, feigning death is a nice move, and some of the vehicles (like the War of the Worlds -esque one) are kickass. I'm extremely tempted to buy the full copy soon if I come across some extra money since I'm that impressed.

Advent Children

school then work
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So, on my quest to watch some more movies I ended up borrowing my friend's copy of Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children. I wasn't too sure what to expect from it. I heard mixed reviews of it, but I love cool looking CGI stuff, and although the only Final Fantasy I've fully played and beaten was Tactics for the GBA, I've always been intrigued by the whole universe and setup of the characters, especially VII because of its ridiculous popularity.

So all in all, the movie was okay. The cool visual were a definite plus, but I wasn't too enthralled by the storyline and the characters. I'm sure that playing and fully understanding the source material would have enhanced the whole experience ten fold, but still, whether I know the whole story or not, I should be able to get into what's going on.

I'm not stupid, and I did pay attention to the movie. I even know a bit about Final Fantasy VII, but the story didn't suck me in at all. There was something about it that just didn't click for me, something missing. I'm not sure what, maybe it was just development of the story, or maybe I do need to know all the events prior to the movie.

However, like I said, the CGI looked pretty, and the fight scenes were awesome when they worked right. The battle with Tifa in the church was probably the most memorable for me, just because of how fast and thrilling it was to watch. Sadly, some of the fights have a bit too much camera movement and quick shots of other stuff going on to really get me pumped up for whats going on. See, I really like it when the camera stays on the fight for a long period of time and I get action nonstop and uninterrupted. I don't care what the other people are doing, if it's that important to have them in the shot then just move them into it, but don't keep jumping from one person to another. That's just annoying.

Movies are awesome

playing in the snow!!
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I don't watch a lot of movies. I own a couple hundred, and I've seen less than 1/3, and remember less than 1/5 of those. I don't know why, I love watching TV from time to time, I love video games, I like making jokes all the time, and movies are a great way to not only get new material and ideas but to establish a connection with my audience, but I still don't see too many of them. I think I'm going to try to change that though.

Why? I think it's because of seeing Beowulf yesterday. That movie kicked ass for 2 hours straight. Everyone else said it was "good","okay", or any number of other responses indicating vague indifference. The "CGI layered on top of real stuff" effect was stunning. At times, I couldn't tell it was fake, other times it looked like an awesome video game (this is a good thing), and some times I could clearly tell it was animated, but only because the action and effects were so wild and out there that I just knew it wasn't real.

Everything that I wanted from a fantasy movie like this I got. Grendel blew my mind with his skin and screeching and blue fire. Pure genius. The dragon he fought? Spectacular. The liquid fire, the golden scales, how he flies when he gets his wing torn - I feel like a little kid it's so awesome.

Besides the movie, the previews beforehand were equally awesome. JUMPER, or JMPR, or whatever it is looked great, The new Tim Burton / Johnny Depp movie looks promising, and there was the new Cloverfield trailer out too which just made me more confused and anxious to find out what was going on.

So yeah, now I'm watching movies.

Thanksgiving

boys will be boys hiding in estrogen
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I just gotta say that I don't like Thanksgiving. People go absolutely crazy for it and I still fail to see why. Is the food they eat drastically different from what I usually consume every year? Are their families that much more entertaining? Are they spiking the drinks? I don't have the slightest idea.

All I know is that my food usually isn't that special. Yeah it's thanksgiving, but still, as far as I'm concerned, mashed potatoes can only be taken to certain extremes. Turkey can only get so good, and I don't even eat meat anymore anyway. Rolls are usually good, but you can't ever get enough and getting sick while eating is the worst thing in the world. Dessert is pretty good, but still - you only have so much room for food combined with there being 147 pumpkin pies and only 1 apple pie. I don't know why there is always such an imbalance of pies. No one ever finishes all the pumpkin pie and people always want more of whatever else is offered. I don't even like pumpkin pie that much, so it's even less for me.

Maybe it's me, but Thanksgiving sucks.

Waking Up

if only...
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So, I woke up really early this morning, sometime around 6 maybe, which is early for me. Naturally, I tried to get back to sleep, but I just couldn't, and I ended up having the most amazing lucid dreams.

Now, I've been having them a lot lately because of my sleep schedule, but this one was way different than the ones I've had before, and I don't know how this makes me feel.

Usually, they're just simple, stupid dreams I have about whatever is going on in my life or around me. This one though, it was about real people in my life, one person in particular, and some sort of confession of love. I don't know what this means, and I don't think there's anything special about it, but just the super realistic feeling of the dream combined with this sort of feeling of happiness of us talking and being together really makes me do a double take. I really don't want to think anything big of it, but what if I'm wrong?

Almost There

schoolin'
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Well, the end of the semester is almost here, and I couldn't be happier. Yeah, it really is still a couple weeks until it actually ends, but for the most part its all downhill and I couldn't be happier. I'm still looking at classes and credit hours and that sort of thing, but it's not nearly as bad as I had assumed. Plus, my grades aren't seeming too bad at this point, so maybe that time spent in Ann Arbor isn't as far off as it seemed.

Speaking of which, I'm psyched to head up there this weekend for the OSU game. I don't have tickets of course, but I like going for the "atmosphere". Naturally, that's just what I tell everyone as a sort of euphemism for getting ham dammered. Saturday will definitely be a good day, and if we win, it's definitely going to be one hell of a night as well.

Other than that, there's a new episode of "Pure Pwnage" out, and since I kind of owe it to them for helping me get excited about gaming again, I'm about to go watch it. It's a great show to begin with anyway, so I guess it's not only because of its influence on me.

Beaten

at school. so cool.
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I feel so stressed out right now, it's unreal. I've got quite a bit to do, such as studying, doing a project, getting a birthday present for my father finished, cleaning my car, doing lots of laundry, math work, registering for next semesters classes, setting up some kind of network for the computers in my house, work, and most importantly, sleeping, since I don't get nearly enough as I think I'd need to function realistically.

Of course, with my massive amounts of procrastination mixed with a very small attention span when theres a computer within 100 yards doesn't make it too easy to get all this done. I want to play Quake4 and get good again. I want some F.E.A.R. multiplayer action and to get the expansion packs. I need to beat Bioshock. I want some more Starcraft LAN action. I want to sit on AIM all day and look at Facebook for no apparent reason. I want to just blow all my money on amazon.com and newegg. Hell, I'm happy just shopping around and putting stuff in the shopping cart just to see how much it costs. Oh, and I'd love to start bringing my DS with me everywhere like I used to, but Tetris and Castlevania don't mix with studying or work.

So Happy!

smo to the gon
eating some lapita!
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The car is back, and alive. The guy at the impound lot did us a favor and bent the stuff back out away from the back tire. Everything is still a bit messed up, but I'm happy. I probably could replace the stuff on the back of my car, but I'll just worry about making the exhaust pipe not all bent out of shape and crazy looking.

An End To Things.

I'm actually at my computer right now. Tricked ya, huh?
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Got some news today, and it doesn't look like the car is savable. The 1993, pink, Geo Tracker with no airbags, a cracked front windshield, dog hair coated back seats, cup holders overflowing with change, isn't going to be around much longer. I'm really sad, it was my first car, and I honestly don't think that I'll ever have a car that will equal the supreme awesomeness of this vehicle.

I've had so many adventures in that car. The discovery of Canton2.0, my random 1a.m. trip to Toledo for absolutely nothing, getting lost in Detroit after a Keane concert, people wanting rides in it because of the novelty of it, and a lot more.

Yeah, the car was old, it leaked oil and some other fluids, didn't accelerate too well, and was kind of rusty, but still, it was cool, odd, and had a history to it. Whatever I get next probably won't have the same air of mystique to it. Plus, whatever I replace it with will be an old car anyway, so it's not like I'm getting a great performing car in lieu of losing my old one.

Though, in all seriousness, if anyone could get me a Pontiac Solstice, I'd consider taking it.

And It Only Gets Worse!

some bitch decided to hit my car
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So yeah, if the away message didn't make things crystal clear, some bitch hit my car today. I'm fine I guess, but the back of my car - oh man. The whole thing fucking folded into itself in a way that made it so whatever is around the back bumper and exhaust pipe is curved inward and scraping my back wheels. Needless to say, I had it towed since the last thing I want is for the tires to get ruined too.

So now, I have no car, but I still have school and/or work 7 days a week, plus other family members that work and need to get around in one way or another. I really don't have any idea how this will work out except that it's gonna be very interesting.

Besides getting to places, I'm wondering how long it's going to take to fix the car, if it's even worth it. I really don't have any idea how long the insurance will take, and I've been told that with the insurance on my car, stuff might not get covered. I'm hoping for the best since I need a car, don't want to spend a whole load of money, and because I don't know what life would be like without my Geo.

Let's just pass the time away...

Not doing my papers/studying
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friend: so i took mushrooms

tomkamrad: aaaaand?

friend: and we listened to rainforest music and looked at monkeys
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So, I'm a pretty decent Starcraft/Brood War player. Or I used to be.

See, today I decided to do a LAN with my brother Adam in Brood War just to waste some time and get back into the game. I've always been okay at the game, and he's not too spectacular at all, so I figured it'd be a couple quick rounds. Maybe a few big battles if I moved slow, but nothing too exciting.

Wrong.

He beat me with the Zerg on a money map where I played Protoss. And he beat me pretty good too. I got kinda pissed, so I wanted a re-match with me being Terran and him being whoever.

Now, I usually just build a big lot of barracks, stock up on minerals, and make masses of fast cheap marines and rush the base in the first 4 minutes of the match- but today, Adam learned how to do the same thing, and he got Siege Tanks out a lot faster than me which sealed my fate early on. Not to count me building Firebats while he's sending cloaked Wraiths at me like its nothing.

So I lost again, and now I want revenge. I WILL BEAT HIM. Mostly cause I feel stupid since the student completely owned the teacher.

Crappy Halloween!

work work work
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Can someone please tell me what's happened in the past few years to Halloween? Last time I checked it was about staying out all night long, getting 2 or 3 bags of candy, and being a kid. It's really not like that anymore.

Why? Well, it all started while I was driving home from work yesterday. It was just a few minutes past 9 o'clock. Once I got into the neighborhood I though something was weird, and it didn't hit me until I was parked in the driveway. Not a single person was out. I even didn't believe it at first and stood around looking for someone, anyone. Nobody.

So I go inside. Only one of my brothers went out that night. He was already in bed, and had just 1 bag of candy. Are people this lazy now? It was ridiculous.

Fast forward to today. My coworker went trick or treating. He's around 23. My friend Aaron went out with some people. They're 17-18. I'm kind of pissed at how these people are still trick or treating. It's not a holiday just for the kids, but still, I don't believe that people over 14 or 15 should be going out begging for free candy. Maybe I just don't get it - though I have a hunch that its probably most of these other people that really don't know whats going on.

A week in review

[Tuesday]
fucking up harcore
shitshitshitshitshit
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Last Thursday was a pretty shitty day, mostly because of the whole "I've been working for 9 days straight" thing I had going on. I got Friday off though, which was needed beyond belief, although for all the wrong reasons. Instead of doing the "right" thing (in this case study like a mofo and do a weeks worth of review in all my other classes) I made the trip up to Ann Arbor in order to party like a fuckin' rockstar - and did I ever.

Through a bizarre twist of fate (kinda) I found myself in possession of a fifth of Everclear and a pint of Bombay Sapphire dry gin. Not counting the various drinks in the friends dorm room I was staying in, (I bought it for her, so she owed me anyway) or all the free, although shitty, beer that would be all over every party within 10 miles. Now, it's kind of been a dream of mine ever since I started reading Tucker Max to try his signature drink, the Tucker Death Mix. Made with Everclear, Lemon-Lime Gatorade, and RedBull, this stuff is literally the Special Olympics in a bottle. Combine that with the 7 or so shots I had afterwards and I was getting ready for a fun night out.

To start the night out we went to a highlighter party which was pretty fun I guess, except for the fact no one told me beforehand and I would have liked a t-shirt to write stupid shit on. I saw some random ass kid who I'm almost positive I've never met in my life and he fucking runs up to me yelling "Whats up man! How crazy seeing you here!" and giving me a high-five. I think he was the crazy one, and not the incident of us both being at this party. I played along though like a pro and we bullshit for a few minutes talking about how "random" it was seeing each other. Whatever, I'm sure it made him happy for the moment, and it makes a funny story for me.

After a while, we slowly made our way out into the street because this girls roommate wanted to go with some guy and we didn't feel like putting up with her whorish bullshit. Let her get raped, I'll still sleep fine tonight. We slowly made our way to this one frat's "Jimmy Buffet" party, which wasn't really my thing. None of his music, too crowded, and it was a total sausage fest. Oh, I wasn't too into the margaritas either, so yeah. Lastly, we went to the frat usually visited for pre-game festivities but no one was there and there was puke on the floor somewhere so we weren't too excited for that.

To end off the night, we stumbled our way to "Big Ten Burrito". The prices were more expensive than the Moe's I used to work at, and the burritos were smaller, but whatever it was 1 am and we were starving. I didn't realize until the next morning that I was somehow coaxed into paying for the burrito of the person whose dorm room I was staying in. An $11 burrito. Awesome!

Saturday Night was pretty great as well. I got off work around 10:15 or so, hung out with some friends, and then went to my ex-manager Mary's legendary birthday/Halloween party. The costumes were pretty wild, I got to see a few old friends, and they had 2 kegs of Rolling Rock, which was pretty damn sweet. Also, some guy from the Beastie Boys "Sabatoge" video was there. Random celebrities are pretty neat.

I Love Apple

[yesterday - 10:00pm]
kind of writing a paper
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So I originally began to write this post on an iPod touch that I was trying out. I don't know why I didn't finish it, might have been because of class, or because of the campus' pretty shitty wifi (or at least it was for me.)

Anyway, for years now, I've been wanting an iPod, not any other brand of music player, just iPod. Of course, I've always put it off for some reason or another - Theres going to be a new one announced in a few months, I don't have the money, Its summer and I'll only use it during school so I'll wait, I have the money -but do I really want to spend it? - Yeah, stuff like that. So, around mid September, I said "Hey, I'm in school, I have a lot of free time between classes, I have money, and my birthday is coming up, I should get one. Not surprisingly, as soon as I start to look up some stuff, the new iPod line is announced. I loved the iPhone and its interface, so naturally, the iPod touch looked amazing to me. Sadly, my old job at Moe's had just ended, so I really was out of money, and I kinda put it off in my head again.

So, last week, at my Father's office, they got a whole load of different players for the new line of Ford vehicles that are fully integrated with mp3 players. I convinced him to let me "test it" for the weekend. I tried setting it up at his office, but I really couldn't since all my stuff is at home on this computer, and for some reason the area hes in doesn't have wifi, only the "presentation suites" upstairs. Why the work area doesn't have wireless internet, I don't know.

The thing handles like a dream. It's light, the screen is beautifully clear, at home the internet was fast, youtube worked awesome, and the songs/album/artist lists are just fun to use because you can throw the stuff around with your finger. The one thing I was always worried about was how the fingerprint smudges would look on the screen after more than 25 seconds of use. With the backlight on you don't even notice a thing (unless for some reason you release an abnormally high amount of oils from your skin, or just ate some sort of pizza). I read probably 5 or 6 of Tucker Max's stories and went on Facebook, and the screen stayed clear as always and I completely forgot about the smudges existing since they're invisible from that view perspective.

All in all, I'm buying one, plain and simple. 16gb though, because even though I only used about 5gb of space on that one, and i don't even listen to 70% of that music since it's not mine, most of my CDs aren't on this hard drive and I plan on having at least a movie or two on it, plus room for extra stuff and photos.

One last note, at the moment, I have in my hands a 30gb Zune. I'll be done with "testing it" tomorrow around 5pm, so I'll give some feedback on how it stacks up to the competition.

People say the funniest stuff

[AFK] School/work all the fuckin' time
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me (12:02:04 AM): you'll need a passport

friend (12:02:29 AM): ain't hard to get one

me (12:02:17 AM): starting 2008 you need a passport

me(12:02:19 AM): im just sayin

me(12:02:21 AM): its a bitch

me (12:02:29 AM): why cant we be like Europe?

friend (12:03:08 AM): cause europe doesn't have Mexicans

Yeah, it's so true isn't it? I'll get an update in sometime tomorrow.

Let's talk about hell.

[sometime around 9am]
x to the zzzzz
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So, the next few months are gonna really suck. As in literally horrible with the way things are looking now. Get this - by the end of the school year, I will owe somewhere around $2600 for tuition. Add on 500$ for books in my second semester. $300 for car repairs. Roughly $100 a month for gas. Christmas will probably cost me around $350 too since I like buying my brothers all the good presents so that they don't leave getting the good stuff in the hand of various 40-50 year old family members. Anyway, all this cash adds up to roughly $4350 which I will need around the end of April.

My job currently pays $7.50 an hour, and that probably won't go up for a while since I just started working there last week. They have me working 25 hours a week, which I really don't even want to work since I go to school full time (well, I only have 13 credit hours this semester, but I'm aiming for at least 14-16 next semester). I told them I want 10-15 hours a week, but they don't like reading so whoever decided to make the schedule either can't read, or just doesn't give a shit. Anyway, assuming I keep working 25 hours a week at $7.50 an hour, I'll make $750 a month. At that rate, it will take 5.8 months to have enough money to be completely out of any debt I have to anyone and start making money for next year. Of course, this is all really optimistic since I'm (stupidly) not taking taxes into account, days I take off for sick/personal reasons, and my inevitable breakdown from working 5 days a week while going to school full time.

Not only does that whole situation make me pissed, but I'm not even paying my whole tuition, I only had to pay a third of it this year. Secondly, I'm only at University of Michigan Dearborn, and when I go to Ann Arbor next year it's going to be more than $10,000 a year there.

Yeah, I know that I really shouldn't complain about being in debt as a college student, especially with at least 3 full years ahead of me, but owing anyone any amount of money eats me alive. I hate the feeling of owing people something, especially something like money that (unfortunately) is a big factor in how people do anything in life.

Work!

work @ 4-??
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Its been a real busy weekend, and I can't believe it's already over. Thursday involved sitting in a friend's basement watching episodes of "How I Met Your Mother", which is one of my favorite shows of all time now. Friday consisted of going to the mall, looking for "life completing" garments (those are not my words) and looking for an awesome hat (this is what I wanted.). Unfortunately, all there seemed to be were fedoras, which I'm not the biggest fan of.

Now Saturday was a hell of a day, and now that I think about it, it was probably equal to 3 normal days. I woke up at 7:55am, showered, ate, got gasoline, and picked up my friends to go up to Ann Arbor for the Michigan-Eastern football game. Now, I'm not a big fan of football, or any sports for that matter, but I do like Ann Arbor, I like being drunk, I like parties, and I like free stuff. So it seemed only natural that I'd make the trip so that I could get what I wanted, and it worked splendidly. The frat we went to was awesome, we met another friend there too, and we had free beer before the game and got to hang out in someones room with air conditioning (which was needed, since it was about 80 degrees out that day). The only real downside to this was that we were drinking notoriously shitty beer, a.k.a. the cheapest kind imaginable (Natty Ice, and The Beast), and it was all lite beer. So yeah, famously bad beer combined with lower ABV. Maybe I should be thankful though, because I would have been annihilated beyond belief if it had been "ice" beer, or even normal (maybe).

Anyway, the game was pretty fun. We sat, we stood, we cheered, we did some kinda stupid stuff with our hands and keys. I got to see some people I haven't seen since graduation last year, so that was kinda nice. It was hot as hell though, which I wasn't the biggest fan of. Also, I purchased a "Michigan Beer Pong" t-shirt for $5. Not a bad deal at all.

Once I finally got home at 5, I took an hour long nap, which ended up lasting until 7. Wow I'm lazy. Anyway, I went to go see my friend Aaron because he wanted to hang out. We ended up calling our neighbor Nathan and his friend and driving to a secret spot I discovered called "Canton 2.0". There's a whole legend behind this place, but it's a very long story. We got Coldstone, went to a secret liquor store because I wanted a pack of gum and Swedish Fish, and then walked around the abandoned streets. It was Resident Evil esque in about 100 different ways. Next we dropped Nathan and his friend off because they needed to go, and we headed out to Wyandotte in order to meet some of his random friends aimlessly wandering the street. We did that for about 35 minutes, and then went back home. As soon as I get into my room and pull out my phone, I realize I have a missed call from my friend Josh who's in school in Chicago.

So, as it turns out, he is in town. I headed over there and we talked about stupid shit thats happened since we last met. Apparently, both of his roomates at his dorm walk in with their girlfriends and nail them openly. Like, he'll be doing homework, or watching TV and people will just come in and have sex next to him. He seemed so thrilled at this. Secondly, he has a story where he's watching Southpark, and his roomate and his girlfriend (who is apparently a highschool sophomore) have an all out screaming match over something. According to him, as he turned around to look at what the hell was going on, the guy lifts his arm and beats her across the face screaming "You see what you made me do!?". Yeah. Kinda scary.

Let us get destructive

[yesterday]1:58am
let's be nihilists a'ight?
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Why shouldn't we be? What have we got to lose?

Mix it up a bit

10:34
shit shitty
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Yeah, I woke up a little late today since I was planning on studying hardcore for my Art History 100-something exam today, but I ended up going on AIM, Stumble, taking a shower, and managing to get iTunes open and playing music. What's a work ethic?

Anyway, I took that test, expecting to get destroyed and embarrassed by it, but it turned out relatively easy considering the excessive amount of cramming done along with me not knowing roughly 20% of the material. Another one is coming up in less than a month, so I guess I'll see where that leads me.

In other news, I got a job making pizzas at a local restaurant at $7.50/hour, plus discounts and free stuff. The works not hard, the people are cool, the schedule seems easy enough, and the decent wage (for me at least) and free food make it awesome. My favorite part would have to be that by the time I make the 1300 or so dollars required to pay off my current semesters tuition, the new one will be starting. I'm still broke for about another few months, but whatever, I need the money, I need to to work (since I go crazy without having a job now), and I needed something to waste my time with since studying obviously isn't on that list.

AFK RL

9:46am
this sucks!
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Yeah, I've been lazy lately and not updating. Life got busy, I got distracted, things (kinda) got done.

Good news: I have a job, I might be getting an iPod touch (which I've been wanting since the second I heard about it), it's raining outside, and it's October, my favorite month of the year!

Bad news: I have an exam on Wednesday, and should be studying since I know next to nothing thats going to be on it, I still owe a lot of people money, and my fucking computer is sitting there as and inconveniently large $2000 5.1 surround sound paper weight. My life needs figuring out, since I can't seem to get what I want when I want it, and what I want most is probably the farthest away and most difficult to get.

Kuh-Razy news: I started my own fraternity called "TΣT". I kind of considered it a joke of sorts since I saw fliers advertising the "Biggest Fraternity on Campus!" and wanted to make the smallest on campus with me and 2 friends. We really haven't done anything yet since it's less than a week old, but I think there are some people that seriously want a part of this. I figure "why not? what the hell!", so only time will tell how kickass this really turns out.

2 Parties and a Birthday

10:49am
its my birthday! and now no one will leave me alone
2:04 pm
you must construct additional pylons
11:12pm
WORK! im crackin' down for my own good

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This weekend was a bit interesting. Went to a party at a neighbors on Friday night which was alright, except a lot of the people there were obvious lightweights and got real annoying real fast. I ended up sitting at a bonfire in the backyard with my friends older brother and some of his friends. It was a lot better and quieter.

Saturday I had a miniature birthday party at a friends house. We got some drinks and I got out my hookah "Picard" and we sat around having a good time. My friend Tom, who had had like 8 beers earlier at the Michigan game tried to drink again with us. He did alright until the end where he beat my record of 12, with his 15. About 20 minutes later though he had to do some self induced vomiting because of how shitty he felt. I guess I'm still champ.

Today was my 18th birthday, but it was more of a hassle than fun. I was woken up around 10 in order to be asked if I wanted to go to breakfast at 11. Well fuck. I felt shitty and tired from 2 late nights out in a row and I get woken up in the middle of deep sleep. I wasn't even about to stop sleeping. Anyway, I eventually get my ass out of bed and hop in the car. We end up at some Motorcycle themed sandwich shop for breakfast. They didn't have much on the menu, and everything good had meat in it so I had some burnt pancakes and a can of Coke. Other than that, I went home, unsuccessfully tried to study, took a horrible nap since no one would shut up, showered, and made myself a personal pizza. Now I've got to do some papers for school along with a bunch of other bullshit (like getting a job and finding football tickets). Oh, and I have to register to vote...

Unexpected Fun

[Thursday] 9:18am
class and then much work to do
[Thursday] 7:34pm
out out out out out out out out out of this world.
1:08pm
typing a paper. cool.

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No time to update yesterday since my night took an unexpected turn. I had already made plans to hang out with a couple people and I was just thinking "We're not gonna do much, probably sit around and watch TV, maybe go to someone else's house, but other than that nothing too special.".Fortunately, while sitting in the Taco Bell parking lot waiting for the others to eat (since I had just had dinner before they called) we got a call from my buddy's girlfriend wanting to know if we wanted to come up to Ann Arbor for a while. It was only about 7:30 when we got the call, so we were all excited that we had the whole night ahead of us to do whatever.

The ride up was kind of funny/ironic in a way, mostly because we were making great time driving up. Its only a 30 minute ride, but we were making it faster than normal, however, the very second that Eric (who was driving) goes "Wow! We are really making it up in record time!" we all suddenly see a wall of red lights in front of us and signs saying the left 2 lanes end in 1 mile. Of course there are hundreds of big 18 wheeler trucks on the highway that suddenly need to get over 3 lanes, so the traffic was abysmal. Not only that, but we were less than 10 miles from the exit, so we just had to sit there knowing that it would have taken us about 5-7 minutes more to have some fun.

Once we finally did make it, everything was awesome. We walked around the dorms, me and Ashley did a "few" shots of something watermelon flavored that a friend of her roommate gave to us, listened to some music, and then went and walked around Ann Arbor for a miniature tour since I'll ideally be attending next fall. Other than that, we didn't do much else.
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Lazy Wednesday

12:34am
REM. hopefully the sleep kind - though i dont mind the music type either.
5:44pm
I am eating a gourmet meal prepared by one of France's finest chefs.

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Not much going on today. I decided to go back to sleep for an extra hour this morning but it quickly turned into my jolting awake realizing it had been almost three that I had slept. That alone almost screwed me over since I have an ass load of work to get done before the weekend in order for me to fully enjoy my time, and I didn't get to do any of it since I spent my remaining time before class cleaning my horribly messy room and taking a quick shower. My rooms still not clean, so that just goes to show how much I really got done. Lets hope that tomorrow is a productive day (since I already plan on going out tomorrow night whether I have anything done or not.).

Awesome, AWESOME, shitty...

1:11am
my computer will kick your ass
4:23pm
rockrock
8:50pm
time to get to work. ive got a lot of stuff to catch up on...

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So last night I get my computer all set up and such and it rocks. The surround sound makes everything infinitely better, and the new keyboard/mouse combo makes everything so smooth and fast. I had a few hiccups while running Quake4 which kind of scared me, but I passed it off for some stupid reason(even though theres little I could have done to fix it.).

School was nothing special, except that it was another day where I didn't eat for some stupid reason. I probably need to wake up earlier. Anyway, I hung out in the library for 2 hours with some friends and narrated the other peoples lives that were sitting around us. It was cruel and funny, so basically we all thourougly enjoyed ourselves. At about 1 though I started getting tired, and I kept getting heavy headed in my seminar.

Once I finally got home, I wanted to show my new computer off, even though its sitting in the living room on a coffee table. I turn it on. It gets stuck at the BIOS. It shows post code 75, a.k.a. problems with the OS. Just fuckin' dandy! I tool around with things, but nothing works, and the hard drives are making evil noises at me too. I'm pissed.

Other than my computer suddenly not working, I've also got 2 papers due next week, a lot of studying on my hands, and I'm still dead tired. Plus my birthday is on the 23rd, so I want to go out and party, which translates to having to do everything before Friday night. Whatever, I'll find a way to work some magic.

Just Monday

1:11am
slumber
8:40am
rockrock
3:27pm
building a machine. lets see if we can get this beast running!

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Last night was surprisingly fun with my trip to Starbucks and Taco Bell, but today was awesome (in a way). It definatly started off shitty with me forgetting to eat breakfast, then forgetting a lunch for my break. By 2:20, I was starving. Once I got home though I decided to give my friend Dave a call to see about finishing up the computer I'm building since he has WindowsXP and Norton and a bunch of other stuff.
So I get all my shit together and go over his house, except that we cannot get the damn thing to work. We plug and unplug everything in the case multiple times only to get nothing. Finally, we kind of admit defeat and go the "tech support" route. After writing an email to see if we get answered in the FAQs and waiting about an hour for a response I kind of gave up hope for the night and started getting ready to go. As I put everything back together, I pulled out the USB connectors so that I could plug my RAM back into the motherboard without the cables getting in the way. The second the USB wires were disconnected the LEDs lit up all over the place and we were in buisness.
So yeah, its almost midnight again, and I just ate my first meal of the day since I was completely starving. Macaroni and Cheese with Cherry Kool-Aid. I guess I'm going to go back to playing Quake4 on the new computer since I haven't every really done the single player.

Ehh - The Weekend Recap

[friday]5:30pm
hahah watching Regina Spektor/mcchris music videos - be back sometime sunday

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So yeah, Friday was pretty much a waste of a day since I can barely remember what I even did during the daylight hours. I took my brothers to my father's house and then we went to 12 Oaks mall and out to dinner at Fridays. Unfortunately, we stayed in the mall for quite some time and ended up going to the restaurant at around 8ish, and it was really busy. It ended up being a quasi-birthday dinner since I'll be 18 next Sunday.

Saturday wasn't too bad, we trekked through the woods outside the surrounding subdivisions for about an hour with the dog. We got to this one part where someones old deer hunting perch was and it reminded me not only of Resident Evil 4 scenery wise, but also because of the brown camouflaged barbed wire everywhere. Later that night we had some awesome fondue and wine, and I got some early birthday presents, which turned out to be a t-shirt and a bathrobe (which I may or may not be wearing right now). I got to play mini-golf too that night, and it's not as great as I thought it'd be.

Today was boring, slow, dull, and pretty much underwhelming. I finally got my good DDR mat back and wanted to play it after getting home and taking a shower, but Randy insisted on watching the Emmy Awards for whatever reason. I told him there was no reason to watch actors he doesn't know get awards for doing programs hes never heard of, he disagreed for whatever reason. As of right now, I just got back from an exciting night of going to Starbucks, Taco Bell, and in about 15 minutes, the ATM.

A Rather Uneventful Day

3:12am
All too soon...
10:45am
going to yasmine bakery for lunch. shit yeah!

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Not too exciting today, woke up at 10, cleaned some stuff, then got a call from my father to go out to lunch. It ended up not being Yasmine Bakery like he said, but another place called Golden Bakery, which was apparently better. The food was awesome for a number of reasons -1- being I hadn't eaten in about 12 hours, 2- being that I love Middle Eastern food, or 3- because the place just had great stuff.
Other than that, I took the canine for a walk since she seemed to be expecting one and because it was a beautiful day. Oddly enough, as soon as we get about 4 minutes into the walk everything clouds up and becomes breezy and cold. Sweet.

I accidently over slept... Twice

8:39am
just woke up. going back to sleep.
11:44am
cleaning my houses gutters, then class until 4. whoopee!
11:59pm
downloading the Enemy Territory:Quake Wars demo!!

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Overall, cleaning the gutters was actually kind of fun since I got to walk around on the roof, which I haven't done in quite a while. Class was bearable, but my Comp teacher seems to be extremely religious which took every bit of my willpower to not start making comments on my beliefs.

As for right now, I just got home from going out with a friend and figured it was time to cave in and download QuakeWars.

The Beginning

Well, here we go! I'll be posting my usually "interesting" away messages and AIM conversations here every day or so. Enjoy!