12.08.2009

Clarity Wasted

Concerta and Piracetam. So clear, fluid, fast, smooth. It was unreal. It still is.

I'm wasting it on my speech. Should have not procrastinated.

12.02.2009

Around and Beyond

sweet nothing
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The paper I wrote about writing got a solid 95 for a grade.
I haven't listened to Frou Frou for a long time and it was oddly refreshing and comforting to hear.
Mario Kart DS is the fuckin shit. You couldn't convince me not to play it. I rediscovered magic.
Speaking of which, I decided to pick up reading the Bible. Genesis is interesting so far, I'm on chapter 17.
I've been asleep more than I've been awake the past week. Relaxing, but scary and unproductive.

11.18.2009

Good at What I Do.

ive got this friend named alza...
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I'm so good at waiting until the last minute that I put the pro in procrastination.

Basically, I wrote some ridiculous 3800 word essay on the philosophies behind The
Matrix
in one sitting yesterday. Shit sucked, paper rocks. Maybe my professor will think the same.

All I want is a big capital A on the front of it.

11.11.2009

Lights Out

learning nothing
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So it was around 1 a.m. and I was hunting for snacks. Right there, on the bay window was a Reese's cup. First thing, verbatim, in my mind was "Fuck yeah! This shit is mine!" I took it and ate it, took a step back, and thought "Wow. Whose was that?". The most annoying shit in the world, when people eat my food without asking or even telling me it's gone, had just been done by me. Don't hate the hypocrite.

Looking through our towel drawer in the kitchen, I found a ridiculous assortment of potentially useful items missing key elements to actually being useful. We have a lot of candles, and enough birthday candles to easily celebrate someone's 110th birthday. Also, at least 6 flashlights. However, we do not have a single lighter or package of batteries in the entire house. I checked.

I guess we're prepared for a power failure, so long as it doesn't get dark.

11.06.2009

Everything at Once

we had a good run
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So much to do and so much time to do it. That must be why I take 3 hour naps, go on 4chan until the sun rises, and play multiple hour BlazBlue sessions.

I need a work ethic.

10.20.2009

Pay Attention Now...

They preach what they're told, not what they know

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I get it buddy. You're the victim of some complicated, convoluted, and oh so compelling whirlwind of neglect, bad relationships, and even worse situations. Spare me the details, I don't care about your rainbow flag, "save the children" fanfares, or effortless excellence in theatrics and drama.

Really, it's hard not to get annoyed sometimes.


10.15.2009

Wine NA

imazombie
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I'm drinking an apple and white grape juice box. This stuff tastes like wine without the alcohol and some sugar added. Goddamn it's good.

10.10.2009

Is Credit to Team!

some speak in tongues, while so many others spit out bullshit
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I think I need to be more alert when I tell people shit, because I'm pretty positive that people take what I say and give themselves credit.

For instance, my rule for calling shotgun is if you can realistically hit it with a tennis ball, you can call it. No windows, walls, fences, blocked lines of sight, or anything of that sort. It makes sense to me at least - if you can hit the car, chances are you're within a distance where the cars getting boarded within a couple seconds.

Well, I brought that up the other day, and got the surprise of being informed how that goes "all the way back to middle school". Funny. I only came up with that about 4-5 years ago, I didn't know this person in middle school, and WE DIDN'T HAVE FUCKING CARS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL. WE WERE 12 YEARS OLD.

10.09.2009

I've got shit to do!

awesome nap, awesome dreams
---
I've got shit to do right now- I'm just not doing it.

This is a problem.

Actually its a reoccurring theme.

I need my life proofread and edited.

10.07.2009

Bizarre Combinations

"sleep"
---
I pulled into the gas station today, and next to me was some lady, late 20's, talking on her cell phone, red faced and crying, pumping gas. It kind of made my day, I honestly never thought I'd get to see a grown woman in tears pumping gasoline. You gotta believe!

9.29.2009

Lotsa Stuff

Leaves are changin'
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So, today I took a 30mg Ritalin LA. Didn't get the intensity I was expecting, but I was a hell of a lot more focused on whatever I did for 3 hours. I started out cleaning my room, then wanted to move onto homework. However, I figured I'd multitask and throw a load of laundry in.

Next thing I know, my entire dresser and closet are empty and I've organized and folded every piece of clothing I own. Then I tried them on to see how they fit, then got rid of the shitty ones, then reorganized everything back into the closet and dresser. I ended up having enough room to hang most of my favorite T-shirts on hangars now instead of folding them up into my drawers.

Speaking of clothes, I really don't like it when people buy me clothing. They're pretty much a billboard for who you are (unfortunately), and I prefer to have as much control over my advertising as I can. My most recent gift of clothing was far less terrible then I anxiously anticipated, but still, It's a principle of mine.

I'm just now starting on my homework for the day, including some 15 page philosophy essay I have to read and write a synopsis of. It's gonna be a long one. Especially when I'm going to interrupt myself with a quick trip to the gym, and more than likely find time to check out the new Left 4 Dead update. Oh, and there's always my long list of art assignments I have to finish by Thursday. Go me!

9.24.2009

XX

>je ne sais pas
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Well, I am 20 years old now. I don't even know what to do with myself. I feel like I've always had some image of what I would be like when I'm "older", but I have no idea how anything will end up. I'm pretty sure I need to move out of Michigan though. The way I see it, the ships going down, and I need to jump out soon.

For my birthday, I got a bunch of food, a new shirt, and my favorite present so far, some 30mg Ritalin LA. Never taken Ritalin before, or any type of pill in fact, but I've been eager to see what kind of effects they have on me and how I can use it to my advantage. I've heard mixed reactions to this stuff, everything from turning kids to emotionless zombies, destroying imaginations, and antisocial behaviour, yet also great bursts of concentration, creative control, and memory. I'll probably try the first experiment next week.

9.17.2009

Genre Bending

Signals weak. Don't want to jump the gun.
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I want to write a show that's part horror and part sitcom. Maybe have Manson and Dexter as college kids with one other dorm mate who is normal.

9.07.2009

Skoo

>Tiffany Blews- oh oh oh oh oh
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First day of classes tomorrow. Boo. Don't have any books, supplies, got dropped from the waitlist for the creative writing class I've been dying to take. Fuck.

At least I have some good philosophy class and a drawing class. Those should tide me over while I take whatever communications class I signed up for and speech.

As an added bonus, I'm going to work my ass off this semester and see if it works. No partying, no super late nights all the time. I'm gonna be sober, working out, eating right, and have a strict list of priorities that actually make sense.

I hoping this will lead to better health, an easier life, better grades, and a way to get a new job soon, because work is fucking ridiculous. We have a new manager who has been with the company less than a year (I'm coming up on 2 unfortunately...), and he doesn't seem to know much of what he's doing. Yeah, everything is simple enough to where he can do it with whatever training he's had, but I'm pissed at the fact that I'm easily more knowledgeable about my job than he is, yet because he's got some bullshit degree from whatever college he is my superior. He made some pretty shitty pizzas today, put 'em in the oven, and then proceeded to tell me to watch what I'm doing because they looked terrible coming out 10 minutes later.

Now I'm stuck with an invalid boss whose first impressions are of some angry guy who can't do his job right. I didn't work my ass off here to get shit on at the bottom of the totem pole.

8.21.2009

I'm Falling

I swear I just smelled the scent of autumn. I instantly felt a wave of flashbacks to last year, walking down the dark streets in the neighborhood, leaves blowing around, the chilled air, and the smell of smoke.

As much as I hope, I don't think this year will be quite like that. Seasons come and go, and so do friends. I don't think I'll be able to replace many of the people in my life.

7.19.2009

Shit Happens.

Nymphets do not occur in polar regions
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So, due to the festivities at Camp Dearborn I hosted last Tuesday through Friday, along with the completely retarded "thought processes" of some people, I'm pretty much banned for at least a year, if not longer. Yeah, it really sucks, especially since I already want to go back on my days off.

I came up with a new MTV reality show called "Placebro Effect". But more on that later.

Oh, and I also found an old CD labeled "Myndflame and Skatman" from close to 3 years ago. I will listen to it whenever I drive and see what music it has to offer.

6.30.2009

Another Sad Tale

>kleening
>sigh...
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I think I'm seriously depressed or something. No matter what I do, I don't feel like I'm ever actually happy. It sucks. Always tired and bored, never interested in anything. Goddamn.

2 weeks ago, the Tracker died while I was preparing for a trip to Camp Dearborn. Now I have a Hyundai Elantra which is a big upgrade for me. I will have full ownership in October 2012.

How depressing, it's actually 2009, and half over. I remember 2001 seeming like yesterday, and the idea of 2010 seemed unimaginably far off.

[edit: 100 wonderfully emo posts!]

Another Sad Tale

6.06.2009

Really Late E3 Impressions

>
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Alright, since my internets have been out, time for some late, angry commentary on E3 this year.

Nintendo kind of pissed me off this year with what they had to show. Super Mario Galaxy 2? Another New Super Mario Brothers, only for Wii? No Kirby, F-Zero, Starfox, Pikmin, or Pokemon announcements? Bullshit.

The new Metroid looks interesting, but I think it looks a little too different from the rest of the series. It's always been about being alone on some dangerous world, not walking around some city. Oh, and when the obligatory black space marine goes "Remember me?" I almost died. How stupid. The combat looks cool since Team Ninja probably knows a thing or two about awesome fight scenes, so hopefully theres enough of that to make the game live up to my lofty expectations.

What really made me mad was the new Galaxy and Mario Bros. Nintendo never makes rehashes of their games, that was what makes them great. Every time a new game launches, it's nothing like the old ones. We don't have Super Mario Sunshine 2 do we? Or Link to the Past 2? No, that's because they were smart enough to realize we don't want the same goddamn thing twice in a row. There's a reason I don't like Halo, and a reason they're called Nintendo and not Bungie. Please, stop with Galaxy 2, and start making new stuff, not sequels. Hell, even their sequels somehow remain fresh- look at the Paper Mario games.

As for Sony, I don't really know what to comment on. More PSP stuff. More God of War, Final Fantasy, and whatever else they love. I've never been a Sony person, and I haven't ever owned a Sony console, so I'm pretty indifferent. Except when it comes to their controller. I hate their controller.

6.01.2009

E3 2009- Day 1

>l4d2? GODDAMN
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Alright, totally forgot e3 was actually this Monday, a.k.a. today, even though I've been reading about it for days.

My predictions for this year went something like this:

Microsoft: We are the best hardcore gamin' console EVAR. We show of 15 BRAND SPANKIN' NEW FPS GAMES WITH INSAAAAANE GRAPHICS. Also, more Guitar Hero sequels, and sequels to everything else under the sun. Expensive DLC, more arcade bullshit, maybe some streaming video.

Sony: PS3 is best console in world. Ever. No one even understands our true power to be awakened. WE have great grafix and crazy processor. METAL GEARZ N FINaL FANTSYYYY 13 omg omg omg. PsP redesign will totally overtake DS fo sho. No price drop. Just some new games. Oh, and blu-ray is here to stay.

Nintendo: Uh, our pants don't fit anymore because our pockets are so full of the cash we're stuffing them with. Wii motion plus, AGAIN. No new, good, first party titles. You're lucky we went as hardcore as "Excitebots". DSi rocks hardcore, probably some exclusive games in development for that, though nothing mind blowing. Still no hard drive, or quality online system.

~~~
Well, today was kind of a surprise with the Microsoft press conference and all. The Natal camera controller gizmo looks interesting, though like others have said, I have reason to doubt how powerful it actually is, and how long it will be here to stay for since the 360 is already in what, its third year? Almost fourth? They have to be getting ready to announce a new console by now. Plus, I have to see the price on it. I bet it's not cheap.

Next up is the announcement of Left 4 Dead 2. What. The. Fuck. Valve. Really? REALLY? I'm not sure how to react to this one. On one hand, I love the game, and the new one has a lot of promising features like the Director 2.0, more campaigns, better graphics, and weapons. But really, It hasn't even been a whole year and their already coming out with a new one when the first one doesn't even have half of what I expected it to. They never released the new matchmaking system, a new campaign, new weapons, or any real game changing twists. Survival mode is cool, but it gives us ONE new level, which consists of a house and a bunch of gas cans. Oh, and still no SDK support, which is what people need in order to program their own mods and user created levels. Basically, $50 for a game we were told was going to have all these awesome features, they delivered minimally on some of them, blew off the rest as of now, and now decided to announce a whole new sequel which apparently delivers all the stuff we've been waiting for. Very un-Valve like. Just look at Team Fortress 2, they do huge updates to it every 2 months. Full class updates, new weapons, new game modes, they always add at least 3 new official maps, plus reoptimizing the game for newer computers.

Sigh...

Okay, and last but not least is the PSP Go. I don't know what to think of this thing. So far, I don't see it doing any better than the original PSP. The DS/DSi has an iron grip on the handheld gaming market, not only because of its massive sales, but because developers actually put out good, intriguing software for it. The touch screen/dual screen combo works so incredibly well, and the amount of new features opened up with the DSi and its SD card slot and improved sound drivers are very big. I don't see how the Go will manage to do any harm, unless they have some impressive pricing on it and its games, which I wouldn't bet on. One of the selling points of it is its 16GB internal memory. Really, I don't think that's a whole lot for a handheld gaming system that is trying to deliver what the Go claims it will. Yes, there are memory cards for expanding space, and the internal storage is actually really nice (especially compared to the pathetic amount the Wii gives us), but I don't think that it will be able to hold that many games. Granted, they cram a lot of shit in a 1 gigabit DS cart, but the PSP has got to deliver superior graphics(which take up a lot more space), or it's got nothing on the competition.

Well then, I can't wait to see what big old Nintendo and Sony have to showcase for us tomorrow. I'll probably watch the press conferences live, or at least Nintendo's.

5.31.2009

Wrasslin'

>lets see how this melatonin works
>%n
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Went out to some stripclub, Deja Vu, last night for their jello wrestling. We had some free passes, so it was only $6 for their bottomless drinks. Drinks being coke, mello yellow, and sprite, since they're full nude and can't serve alcohol. I'm only 19 anyway.

It was Andy's first time at a strip club, so we all pitched in $5 to get him a lapdance. I'm pretty sure he loved it. Besides that, the sex shop was equally hilarious. Probably a good 700 porno movies, some with the funniest titles ever. Ejacula? Whore Gaggers 5? Fuck my Skull 7? Rock n' Roll in my Butthole? Hell yes.

I also picked up Relapse, and it's a pretty solid album. I'm kind of wary about the whole "concept album" bullshit, but Eminem does a pretty solid job of keeping with his Slim Shady character. I can't wait for the second one later this year, and Detox if it ever happens.

Also got 21st Century Breakdown, though I haven't really listened to it yet. Judging from the reviews I've seen, it's supposed to be pretty good, and it's apparently Green Days "favorite album so far", although I got that quote from someone who likes to cite everything as fact without question.

Oh, and my Pokemon Platinum file - the goddam game doesn't work on the DSi. It's some bootleg copy I got from a friend off ebay, and the DSi recognizes the game, but won't let me play it since I'm assuming it can tell it's pirated. I already put 20 hours into it which sucks, but I'm only just after the third gym, so it's not so far that I'm fucked. I guess I'm gonna buy an AceKard or something that works with the DSi, and transfer my pokemon to a new Platinum file, then just tear through the beginning of the game with a bunch of level 30s. Plus I can get duplicates of all the gym leader TMs. Always nice.

5.26.2009

I'm gonna punch you in the face...

>
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Sunday night, I wanted to punch people in the face three different times for their sheer fucking stupidity.

Situation one involved me and a couple people discussing the man in China who pushed another man off a bridge who was planning to commit suicide. [link]. This turned into a discussion about suicide and people killing themselves, and eventually how odd it is that it is illegal to commit suicide. At this point, someone goes "I don't care if it's illegal or not, doing stuff like that means you're going to hell when you die." Really, I don't want to sound like some supremest, elitist, or anything else like that, but I really have a hard time taking anyone seriously when they live their lives and make decisions over their acceptance to heaven.

Later, someone brought up some sort of religious topic, maybe cause I started reading the Quran. Anyway, someone brings up atheism, somehow I'm brought into the discussion, and I'm asked if I really believe that "you turn into a tree when you die." I wish I had something large and made of metal to throw at this point. I tried to explain that when you die and your body decomposes, it naturally gets reabsorbed into the soil and probably will find its way into some sort of plant life, though not in any recognizable form. Just like fossil fuels, which are made from decayed living matter, like dinosaurs, only we refine them and combust it for our cars. I don't think they understood what I was even saying. I tried to explain how most of the stuff on Earth is carbon based, as in it was created from some type of supernova at one point, if not some other phenomenon. I'm pretty sure this went over their head too.

RAAAAGE.

The third unfortunate incident was an argument over tipping waitstaff at restaurants. As someone who works in the kitchen of a restaurant, does real, physical work, and still makes less than even the worst waiters, I told someone at work that I no longer leave tips larger than the change I get back from my meal because the waitstaff do no real work. They write down what you want to eat, and 15 minutes later bring you a plate with it. There's a reason they make $3 an hour, they don't do anything. I sure as hell don't get tips. Or compliments for a well prepared meal. Or much of anything, except a paycheck that's always a little to small.

The person I was debating with works in carry out. This person makes slightly less than me if we were comparing hourly wages. However, they also work in an air conditioned area of the restaurant, with a television. I make food, put it in a to-go box, and put it in the carry out windown. They take it, turn 180 degrees, place it on the carry out counter, and the customer takes it. They also answer the phones and ring in carry out orders, but really, it's still not work. Still though, this person actually said they believe they DESERVE tip money for what they do. Working a cash register, pressing buttons on a computer to ring in orders, and answering the phone every couple minutes.

5.21.2009

Really? A Month?

>MACGRUBER
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Shit, I've been out of class for almost a month. I went to Motor City Comic Con, Camp Dearborn the past 3 days, and that's about it. Good thing I have time to stop playing WoW on a flight path so I can write about my life. What the hell is wrong with me?

Only change I've noticed in the past 2 weeks is that I replaced smoking with Warcraft. Not a good substitute. Not at all. At least I have more money, and time I guess.

Well, my Darnassus reputation isn't going to raise itself...

5.12.2009

Day 14(damn, 2 weeks already)

>Frou Frou
>Huntail
---
Went and saw Star Trek last night at IMAX with a bunch of friends. It was fucking awesome. The actors all fit their roles perfectly, the ship battles looked great, and the design of Spock's future ship with the red matter in it was kick ass. Also, I was a big fan of the complete lack of obligatory sex scenes which seem to plague most modern action movies. Apart from the 15 seconds Kirk hooks up with the green chick at the academy, they kept to the plot of the movie, which is actually the reason I saw it. Not for the PG-13 sex. Amazing. Actually, so amazing that I want to go see it again with some people in another week. It's rare that I see a movie twice in theaters, but this is Star Trek, and I'm a huge geek for it.

5.08.2009

Day X?

bandwagons full-please catch another
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Well, I started getting into Pokemon Platinum. Apart from the bootleg-tastic game and occasional freezes, it's still a pretty solid game. Since I really didn't feel like dealing with all the shitty wild pokemon in this generation, I decided to import a Dratini, Larvitar, and Gastly to work with my starter. Unfortunately, Dratini and Larvitar need a shit ton of exp to level, and all 3 of them won't listen to me anyway since I don't have enough badges.

I started playing WoW again. Pretty much just doing dailies for money, and hitting Icecrown soon so I can continue on with the story. I finished Storm Peaks 2 days ago and it was alright. They need more zones like Stranglethorn Vale, tons of quests, lots of events, instances, and lots of ganking. I need intensity, not snowy tundras and worthless Venture Coins from pvp that nobody does.

I actually got together with some people and worked on some sort of musical project. Only problem was that the people who are the most gung-ho about performing and writing music are the ones who seemed to contribute the least. Whatever though, all I have to offer is my angelic singing voice, so I'm not really one to call people out for not contributing.

I need to find Johnathan Livingston Seagull somewhere in my house. I want it to be the first book I read this summer, plus I really don't know where it is and that's a problem.

The drinking club hasn't made any progress, aside from me drinking a few 40s of Olde English, a fifth of cherry flavored hair spray (burnettes vodka), and some Captain Morgans. Whatever, I'm trying to work out and eat healthy, so I don't know how much alcohol I really want to include in my already shitty diet.(except I just at a big ass bowl of OATZ)

Oh, and I think I'm going mad with the lack of /r9k/ in my life. Whoever is attacking the boards needs to stop. I need my favorite timewaster back.

5.01.2009

Vacation- Day Thr33

andwhentheybangthisintheclubyouknowyougottogetup
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I'm about to start looking for a new job, and I think that there is one with some hope in it. I'll turn in an application on Monday.

I saw Wolverine or Xmen Origins, or whatever it's called last night. It was "eh". I was so pumped for Ryan Reynolds as Deadpool in this movie and he gets maybe 7 minutes of screen time and one fight scene. Bullshit. Same with Gambit, who they made look like a flamer. Not cool.

4.29.2009

"Vacation" Journal- DAY 1

>well, SHIT SON
>you complicate things my dear
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Today, my first official day of vacation until school starts back up sometime in 5 months. Here are the summer plans, and how I plan to achieve them

1)get /fit/. Workout more rigorously and frequently. Already going fine, and I actually don't mind doing it now that I can be outside in the sun.

2)learn some fashion knowledge. I want to look good this summer, and from now on, so I guess this will come in handy.

3)beat Zelda Twilight Princess for Wii. Never did, always kinda wanted to.

4)Pokemon Platinum. I want to do as much as possible. I'm a huge pokemon fan.

5)read the Quaran and "something else" whose name escapes me completely at the time...

6)beer drinking club. Once or twice a week, get together with friends and we all get the same kind of beer and try it. I figure by the end of the summer we'll have hopefully tried like 20-30 beers and we can be well on the way to being pretentious alcoholics.

7)get the band back together. I know at least 3 or 4 musical projects people are working on and I said I'd like to try to help out with. We never get anything done- until now.

8)comics. Now that I own a scanner, I haven't used it since Christmas. I'm funny damnit, and I have drawing ability. This should happen.

Well now, I have to be getting to work. The one thing in my life that holds me back. By far the most necessary of evils, and by far the most evil.

4.21.2009

4.16.2009

Not Lazy, Not Stupid, Just Uninterested

status
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I have a paper to turn in today. 4 hours ago actually. I'm less than 10% done.

My paper was technically due Tuesday, but the sheet said Thursday the 14th, so I went with Thursday to give myself more time.

I would have known about this if I would have gone to class last week, but I didn't.

I'm supposed to be leaving for work in 5 minutes, so I don't think I'll be able to write much more than an intro sans-thesis.

I know I'm gonna get a shitty grade on this assignment. I don't care. I know I'm paying money out of my pocket to get this shitty grade, but it's gotten to a point where I just want the class to be over with. It's boring and uneventful. We don't read anything of social value, or anything relevant. I don't care about reading Antigone. Sure it's interesting, but I want something fucked up and socially conscious. I want to discuss the writers' and his characters philosophies, not rhyme scheme in poetry. I want some Orwell among other things.

This class is pure liberal arts bullshit, served with a healthy dose of busy work and "assignments" that are not much more than us regurgitating information from lectures, sparknotes, wikipedia, and the book so we can learn about the wonders of the English language. Like my paper. I'm writing about Antigone. Nothing exciting, just regurgitating. No deep insight, no quandries, no heated argument, just skimming the surface of mediocrity.

And I'd have an A on it if I cared.

3.18.2009

Watch Out for Wet Floors!

akin to pagemaster!
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So yesterday at work I walked into the refrigerator room to grab a large ass bag of pepperoni. Since we get restock deliveries on Tuesdays, I couldn't see any bags on the shelves and so I reached up to the top shelf to grab a box of pep to open. Little did I know, there was a bag of pepperoni on top of said box, and when I slid it off the top shelf, the bag came falling down and smacked me right in the head. Ouch.

So this got me thinking.

What if the floors had been a little more wet, or that bag was a little bigger? I think I would have gotten knocked out. Similar to what happens to Macaulay Culkin in Pagemaster. The designs on the packages would have come to life, jumped out at me, and then turned me into a cartoon character. Oh, and Patrick Stewart and Whoopi Goldberg would voice my food themed friends that escort me through this animated pergatory.

Seriously. I believe this would have actually happened.


3.17.2009

A Movie Review

dragonball evolution
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So last night the movie Dragonball Evolution got leaked, in English, onto youtube. Since it was about 2 a.m. and I was bored as hell, yet not tired, I decided to browse the /tv/ boards. Lo and behold, there was the link. So I decided to watch it.

After the first 10 minutes, I thought to myself "Well, this isn't that bad. Maybe I'd see it in theaters with friends." There were the standard deviations that occur when translating a 10 year old anime into a live action film, so although not blown away, I could accept the movie for what it was.

Well, it only went downhill from there. The poor quality of the video, combined with intense fatigue from the previous days of punishment at work and school didn't help it in any way either. With about 35 minutes left of the movie, I decided to IM a friend of mine to share some of the pain with...

(commentary inserted randomly in bold)
tomkamrad (2:24:07 AM): dude
TDan953 (2:24:26 AM): ?

Auto Response from tomkamrad (2:24:26 AM): flip the trap
tomkamrad (2:24:54 AM): this is unfortunately REAL
TDan953 (2:25:39 AM): Oh gad
tomkamrad (2:25:57 AM): Im almost done watching it all
TDan953 (2:26:03 AM): x_X
tomkamrad (2:26:29 AM): I guess I'm a movie masochist
TDan953 (2:26:51 AM): Apparently that movie did really well in Asia
(proof that Asian box offices mean shit)
tomkamrad (2:27:33 AM): Well, it's nothing at all like the anime
TDan953 (2:27:41 AM): Yeah...
tomkamrad (2:27:47 AM): Yamcha is a total bro
TDan953 (2:27:53 AM): Speaking of which, did you see they're redoing the anime?
tomkamrad (2:27:54 AM): like, he actually says bro all the fucking time
TDan953 (2:27:59 AM): rofl
tomkamrad (2:28:04 AM): redone anime?!
TDan953 (2:28:10 AM): Yeah dude
tomkamrad (2:30:32 AM): woah, this is totally awesome
(seriously, I'm kinda excited)
tomkamrad (2:31:06 AM): okay, so theres only about 20mins left of the movie, and hes just learning kamehameha
TDan953 (2:31:19 AM): wat
tomkamrad (2:31:39 AM): and chichis massive father never makes an appearence
(I was really hoping for that massive man to make it to the big screen)
TDan953 (2:31:44 AM): =(
tomkamrad (2:33:03 AM): im crying
TDan953 (2:33:13 AM): QQ
tomkamrad (2:33:28 AM): WHO GAVE THIS THE OKAY
TDan953 (2:33:35 AM): WRYYYYYYYYY
tomkamrad (2:33:58 AM): AT ONE POINT SOMEBODY THOUGHT THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA AND WILLINGLY PUT OUT MILLIONS TO MAKE THIS MOVIE
TDan953 (2:34:14 AM): Apparently they're making more.
(I just died a little inside after hearing this)
tomkamrad (2:35:22 AM): bulma is like a weapons master
TDan953 (2:35:30 AM): psyduck.png
tomkamrad (2:35:33 AM): lol
tomkamrad (2:35:41 AM): stop 4channing me
TDan953 (2:35:46 AM): lulz
TDan953 (2:35:55 AM): So, what've you been up to these days?
tomkamrad (2:36:19 AM): school, work, r9k
TDan953 (2:36:29 AM): Ah
TDan953 (2:36:33 AM): Where're you working?
tomkamrad (2:36:38 AM): started doing artworks again
tomkamrad (2:36:42 AM): buddy's
TDan953 (2:36:48 AM): orly
tomkamrad (2:36:54 AM): f'sho
TDan953 (2:37:00 AM): Got anything you can show me?
tomkamrad (2:37:10 AM): not currently
tomkamrad (2:37:22 AM): i need to sit my ass down and scan stuff for once
tomkamrad (2:37:46 AM): OMG ROSHI JUST USED KAMEHAMEHA TO BRING GOKU BACK TO LIFE
TDan953 (2:37:59 AM): wat
TDan953 (2:38:02 AM): Does that even make sense?
tomkamrad (2:38:11 AM): HE REENERGIZED HIM
(total bullshit. THEY SHOOT THE ENERGYBEAMS TO KILL SHIT not heal the sick and help the poor)
tomkamrad (2:38:16 AM): phaillllll
TDan953 (2:38:47 AM): Indeed
tomkamrad (2:39:05 AM): this movie is so jumpy
tomkamrad (2:39:22 AM): 7 minutes ago, goku learned kamehameha then started kissing chichi
tomkamrad (2:39:53 AM): hes already died in a gunfight, and now theyre fleeing this temple because piccolo has all 7 balls and is about to destroy the world
TDan953 (2:40:14 AM): >_>
TDan953 (2:40:23 AM): This movie sounds impossibly horrible.
tomkamrad (2:40:43 AM): apparently now, piccolo was sealed away 2000 years ago
tomkamrad (2:41:18 AM): hes a fucking alien
tomkamrad (2:41:24 AM): this isnt inuyasha
TDan953 (2:41:42 AM): alksdjfawelfkejafelk
TDan953 (2:41:49 AM): I think we're being trolled
(i know we're being trolled at this point)
tomkamrad (2:42:02 AM): real hardcore
TDan953 (2:42:07 AM): 10/10
tomkamrad (2:42:38 AM): okay, 12 minutes left of the movie
tomkamrad (2:42:49 AM): goku just got in a hummer accident
tomkamrad (2:43:02 AM): and walks out of the wreckage in his orange uniform
tomkamrad (2:43:12 AM): he wasnt wearing it before
tomkamrad (2:43:50 AM): now theres and eclipse
tomkamrad (2:44:07 AM): and goku is turning into a wolfman
tomkamrad (2:44:15 AM): i suppose its supposed to be his ape form
TDan953 (2:45:10 AM): =|
TDan953 (2:45:39 AM): ...Wait, eclipse?
TDan953 (2:45:46 AM): Isn't it supposed to be on the full moon?
tomkamrad (2:45:46 AM): oh yeah
tomkamrad (2:45:57 AM): theres an eclipse thats going to end the world
tomkamrad (2:46:25 AM): because its the sign of the apocalpse
TDan953 (2:46:38 AM): >_>
tomkamrad (2:46:56 AM): bulma is kinda hot
(really, she was)
tomkamrad (2:47:14 AM): youtube quality video doesn't help though
tomkamrad (2:48:01 AM): also, still no flying nimbus, extendopole, dinosaurs, krillin, or red ribbon army
TDan953 (2:48:22 AM): =<
tomkamrad (2:48:46 AM): I MUST HAVE FAITH IN WHO I AM
(so deep, im getting this tatood on myself one day)
tomkamrad (2:51:26 AM): THATS THE FUCKING DRAGON?
(phailtrain has officially left the station at this point)
tomkamrad (2:51:51 AM): OMG WORST MOVIE EVER
TDan953 (2:52:13 AM): D:
tomkamrad (2:52:20 AM): hooooooooooly shit
tomkamrad (2:52:58 AM): no no no no no no
tomkamrad (2:53:22 AM): i cannot believe i just watched this whole thing
(90 minutes of torture, and its 3a.m. to boot, my god i was tired as shit at this point)
TDan953 (2:53:38 AM): I think you're required by law to commit seppuku now
TDan953 (2:54:02 AM): The founding fathers foresaw this movie. It's in the motherfucking Constitution
TDan953 (2:54:59 AM): That said, I should be getting to bed. See ya.
(i dont blame him for leaving at this point)

3.16.2009

La la da da da...

flip the trap
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I skip class a couple times a week now. I don't even care or feel any sort of remorse or obligation. Out of sight, out of mind I suppose. It's been a couple weeks for my bullshit LIT class, so I think I'll go tomorrow just because it's been so long.

I've been thinking of creating a pen name for myself, but make him 45 years older and have him die soon with all of his works unpublished. This way I'll be able to have a career that is entirely posthumous, yet still get the benefits of all the fame and money at the same time. Ridiculous yet awesome.

I need to get out on some sort of vacation, or at least out of my house during the daylight hours. The past couple months have been a blur of school, work, and sleep, with all of my free time and leisure taking place when it's dark out. I need to brighten up my life because it's making me slow and depressed.

I had something funny to add, but it escapes me for the moment...

2.18.2009

Dog Tongue

>oops, wrong button
>woah, hell of a party
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I think it's funny when my dog yawns or opens her mouth really quick and her tongue flops around.
No tongue control, how weird.

2.10.2009

On a Mothafuckin' Boat!

>i hate work
>on a mothafuckin boat
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http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=R7yfISlGLNU

I've watched this video probably 10 times in the past 24 hours. I was surprised that T-Pain would do something like this, but after seeing it, I only like him more.

Off to work...

2.07.2009

Feeling Change

>strippers named cinnamon, more chips than pentium HOLY SHIT
>and I've got this crazy feeling
>5 bank accounts, 3 oz., and 2 vehicles
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Getting into my car the other day, I swear I could smell spring. It wasn't cold outside, just cool. A breeze came along as I was opening my door, and it didn't have a chilly scent to it, but something fresh and alive, not warm yet like the summertime, but distinct from the sterile, bitter scent of winter. It felt good to be able to know that the season will soon be over.

2.03.2009

Who Knows What's up?

>me and icarus burn together
>i roll with ma shit off safety
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I have no idea what's been wrong with me the past 3 days. All I want to do is sleep, and I don't even care. I skipped class yesterday and today so I could sleep for an extra 6 hours. Yesterday, I got my paycheck, chilled with some friends for a couple hours, then came home and fell asleep on the couch. I don't even want to be awake right now. I don't feel depressed, just really really tired and a little apathetic.

On a lighter note:

"Just think about it. We'd be a beacon of light for the gay community."
"Oh yeah?"
"Kinda like the gay Martin Luther Kings. Only better!"
"Well, wouldn't we be Martin Luther Queens then?"

1.23.2009

I'm in bed

>me and icarus burn together
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So I finally got my laptop, the Asus eee 900HA. I gotta say, besides the really small keyboard, this thing is pretty damn awesome. It's super small so I can easily take this thing everywhere and I'll probably get around to downloading some games for this thing, probably a bunch of emulators. It'll be like a completely portable old school gaming machine. With a couple RPGs and some quick mindless distractions like Columns I think I'll be well entertained wherever I go for quite some time.

Well, I suppose it's time to defragment the drives and whatnot to make sure this thing will run to it's full potential. I can't wait to see what else I can do with this thing.

1.20.2009

Rick Warren

>interesting speech eh?
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What the fuck was up with Rick Warren and his nice long prayer? Shit pissed me off. Ugh, I can't even believe they gave him that time on the podium. At the presidential inauguration of all places too. His politics are hateful and inconsiderate of anything other than whatever church faction he pledged himself to. How incredibly stupid and ignorant.

Now, I'm not saying that I don't believe that anyone should be able to speak their mind, cause I'm all about free expression and anti-censorship and whatnot. Really though, I think something needs to be done about big ethical foundations found in religion and whatnot. We need to somehow decide once and for all what is acceptable and what isn't when dealing with all these religious nuts.

Obviously, as any semi-rational child will figure, their whole idea and concept of god is completely false. The religious leaders of the world have been slowly changing their positions and backing up for hundreds of years now. Why is it that a few hundred years ago the Bible was taken as fact, while today much of it is either open for interpretation or considered highly symbolic? Wake the fuck up and realize that none of that shit is true. How can the flawless word of God just magically be reinterpreted and have it's meanings and histories changed based on the current state of human cultural development? Just like some ass backwards textbook of mysticism, it keeps undergoing revisions and new editions, only instead of actually presenting any sort of factual, hard evidence from the time of scripture or even any sort of miracles from today, the meanings just get reassigned to keep people doing whatever it is the church wants.

In all seriousness, we need to have a final, end all decision on the validity of the religions of the world. These billions of foolish people all believe in their one god who will save them while simultaneously thinking, and possibly preaching, how every other of the religions out there are false. Something is seriously wrong with that. It defies all logic.

Yes, I'm a complete atheist. Agnosticism is even worse than being religious because either you believe in a god or not, easy as that. However, I only use these terms in the sense of religious beliefs. That's because even with science as the finest tool for deciphering what's out there in the universe, we still don't have any idea about the cause of everything, or what will happen when it ends. Obviously something happened, and the word "god" is so loaded with so many different meanings at once that it's foolish to use it to describe whatever it was that started whatever our reality is. Besides that, were relatively new on the evolutionary chain as humans. Maybe in 25,000 years some new evolutionary trend will be fully implemented and we'll see everything in a whole new, clearer light.

1.19.2009

New. New. New.

>new ppg@8
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Well, today was a pretty exciting day. I cleaned and completely reorganized my room and closet, started getting my freshly "xp upgraded" computer back in action, got a few new albums for the music collection, and even saw the new Powerpuff Girls episode. It was awesome.

Besides that, I now have Mass Effect and Spore installed and running smoothly. I just got to the land animal phase on Spore, but I know what's in store ahead and I'm anxious to see what kind of awesome stuff I can create. The amount of freedom you have is so great, especially when designing your creature. Buildings should be fun too.

Well, this is getting cut short because the cough syrup just hit me like a truck.

1.15.2009

Just Gotta Ignore It...

>tatted up and fatted up
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As seemingly good as my life has been recently, the world itself is the same old shitty place. I can't get over how fucking much my books cost, and continue to cost me since I don't even own all of them yet. 110$ for a book I know I'll use maybe 5 times over the next 3 months. Not even 5 important times. Bullshit. The schools and book companies are gouging my wallet like no other. Their profits have to be ridiculous.

This past week at school was going pretty well for me. Good classes, nice people, decent teachers, all arranged in a tight fitting, efficient schedule. I have free time in the afternoon and actually do homework the night it's assigned all while having time to burn on my own endeavors.

Today I realized why my week was going so well - I wasn't scheduled for any of those days at work, and really, I didn't even think about that place for a second. I didn't miss it one bit. Now I realize that work is for the most part, the cause of all the stress in my life. Every night of every weekend is spent there, giving me no time to go out and see other people. Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays are busy days, and therefore I do lots of work for long and painful shifts. Yeah, they're maybe only 6 or 7 hours, but when they last from 4pm onward the majority of your day, and the time you could be spending with others, takes place in a miserable little kitchen run by confused, miserable people. After a single shift today, I was sick of that place. I need to get out. How do the managers work 50 hours a week there? How? It's got to be soul crushing.

1.11.2009

Walkie Talkie

>that beautiful, intoxicating yellow house. and that horrendous landscaping next door...
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Yesterday, on the last full night of my little winter vacation I can honestly say that I had the most interesting, exciting, exhausting time in who knows how long. Everything I did was fun, memorable even. Imagine that.

I got off work, bundled up, and Neal and I trekked through the snow and fracturing ice to go see the fort for the first time in months.I think that only a picture can do this any sort of justice. The woods were dead and bare, but so bright with moonlight. Besides a few unidentifiable animal tracks, we were the only signs of life. It felt good to seem like the only humans on earth. I felt total disconnect from all the shit I have to see, hear, smell, think about, and deal with in my day to day affairs. Everything just melted into the snow and got left behind.

Afterwards, we met up with one of Neal's friends and her sister and wandered the neighborhood for at least an hour, just walking in the middle of the snow filled streets. It was cold, I was congested, but it was a long and good conversation with some good people.

I could have gone to bed happy, but then I got a call from Andy, my coworker, and he wanted to go sledding at Ford Field. I decided to meet up with them, even though it was already well past midnight and my legs were sore.

I ended up waiting 25 minutes at the park for them to get there, all while trying to get there as fast as possible because I figured they'd be waiting for me. I wasn't mad though, I wasn't even that annoyed, and when everyone showed up we had a blast sledding until around 2:30. Good times.

Tomorrow is my first day of classes for the new semester. I don't want to go at all. Should I?

1.09.2009

Immune

glasses glasses!
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So, on my quest to try to stop wasting time getting messed up I decided to try to take out what was left of the new years beers tonight. I just drank 10 beers, and I really don't even feel that large of a buzz. Granted, they were Busch Light - but still. I just took a 20 minute walk and I didn't feel tipsy or clumsy or much of anything.

Besides the 120 oz. of beer, I had a pretty awesome night. Neal and Aaron came over and we just talked for 3 hours straight. We talked about abortion, human nature, life, feelings, society, 2012, and total social transparency. It was filled with debate, opinion, and argument. It was both nerve wracking and relaxing. It was probably the best Friday night I've had in a long while.

Here's to more nights like this one. Cheers.

1.04.2009

Who Knew the New Me?

>I want to publicly denounce somebody.
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New Years resolutions: Work out, stop all the sugar intake, work hard, don't waste time or money.

Working out hasn't been all that hard. Maybe I'm not doing it right, or maybe I'm underestimating myself. Maybe it's just easy for me. Maybe anything is easy for me. Anything. That would be great. Phenomenal. I think it's worth looking into.

As part of my full self redo, I'm also done with smoking for a few months. It's an investment that takes time and money,two things that most of human life revolves around almost exclusively, and two things I always seem to not have enough of. The last of the ganj will be gone either tonight or tomorrow. After that, no restock, no calls, no matching, no free hits. Picard, the hookah is getting washed and scrubbed tomorrow, Tassadar is getting soaked in hot water and soap as I write this. I have a single zig zag left, but not enough to fill it. That goes in the trash I guess.

I just washed my bathroom clean of anything left behind. Ashes, trash I discarded, crap on the windowsil. I'll mop and vacuum tomorrow since I don't have work.

My room is already messy from the New Year's eve party. Clothes and water bottles are discarded all over the floor. There are bits of trash I either missed or keep ignoring on the floor. Nothing major, nothing disgusting, but it's not clean. I want to reorganize my room too. We shall see.