Showing posts with label school. Show all posts
Showing posts with label school. Show all posts

12.08.2009

Clarity Wasted

Concerta and Piracetam. So clear, fluid, fast, smooth. It was unreal. It still is.

I'm wasting it on my speech. Should have not procrastinated.

10.20.2009

Pay Attention Now...

They preach what they're told, not what they know

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I get it buddy. You're the victim of some complicated, convoluted, and oh so compelling whirlwind of neglect, bad relationships, and even worse situations. Spare me the details, I don't care about your rainbow flag, "save the children" fanfares, or effortless excellence in theatrics and drama.

Really, it's hard not to get annoyed sometimes.


9.29.2009

Lotsa Stuff

Leaves are changin'
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So, today I took a 30mg Ritalin LA. Didn't get the intensity I was expecting, but I was a hell of a lot more focused on whatever I did for 3 hours. I started out cleaning my room, then wanted to move onto homework. However, I figured I'd multitask and throw a load of laundry in.

Next thing I know, my entire dresser and closet are empty and I've organized and folded every piece of clothing I own. Then I tried them on to see how they fit, then got rid of the shitty ones, then reorganized everything back into the closet and dresser. I ended up having enough room to hang most of my favorite T-shirts on hangars now instead of folding them up into my drawers.

Speaking of clothes, I really don't like it when people buy me clothing. They're pretty much a billboard for who you are (unfortunately), and I prefer to have as much control over my advertising as I can. My most recent gift of clothing was far less terrible then I anxiously anticipated, but still, It's a principle of mine.

I'm just now starting on my homework for the day, including some 15 page philosophy essay I have to read and write a synopsis of. It's gonna be a long one. Especially when I'm going to interrupt myself with a quick trip to the gym, and more than likely find time to check out the new Left 4 Dead update. Oh, and there's always my long list of art assignments I have to finish by Thursday. Go me!

9.07.2009

Skoo

>Tiffany Blews- oh oh oh oh oh
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First day of classes tomorrow. Boo. Don't have any books, supplies, got dropped from the waitlist for the creative writing class I've been dying to take. Fuck.

At least I have some good philosophy class and a drawing class. Those should tide me over while I take whatever communications class I signed up for and speech.

As an added bonus, I'm going to work my ass off this semester and see if it works. No partying, no super late nights all the time. I'm gonna be sober, working out, eating right, and have a strict list of priorities that actually make sense.

I hoping this will lead to better health, an easier life, better grades, and a way to get a new job soon, because work is fucking ridiculous. We have a new manager who has been with the company less than a year (I'm coming up on 2 unfortunately...), and he doesn't seem to know much of what he's doing. Yeah, everything is simple enough to where he can do it with whatever training he's had, but I'm pissed at the fact that I'm easily more knowledgeable about my job than he is, yet because he's got some bullshit degree from whatever college he is my superior. He made some pretty shitty pizzas today, put 'em in the oven, and then proceeded to tell me to watch what I'm doing because they looked terrible coming out 10 minutes later.

Now I'm stuck with an invalid boss whose first impressions are of some angry guy who can't do his job right. I didn't work my ass off here to get shit on at the bottom of the totem pole.

4.29.2009

"Vacation" Journal- DAY 1

>well, SHIT SON
>you complicate things my dear
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Today, my first official day of vacation until school starts back up sometime in 5 months. Here are the summer plans, and how I plan to achieve them

1)get /fit/. Workout more rigorously and frequently. Already going fine, and I actually don't mind doing it now that I can be outside in the sun.

2)learn some fashion knowledge. I want to look good this summer, and from now on, so I guess this will come in handy.

3)beat Zelda Twilight Princess for Wii. Never did, always kinda wanted to.

4)Pokemon Platinum. I want to do as much as possible. I'm a huge pokemon fan.

5)read the Quaran and "something else" whose name escapes me completely at the time...

6)beer drinking club. Once or twice a week, get together with friends and we all get the same kind of beer and try it. I figure by the end of the summer we'll have hopefully tried like 20-30 beers and we can be well on the way to being pretentious alcoholics.

7)get the band back together. I know at least 3 or 4 musical projects people are working on and I said I'd like to try to help out with. We never get anything done- until now.

8)comics. Now that I own a scanner, I haven't used it since Christmas. I'm funny damnit, and I have drawing ability. This should happen.

Well now, I have to be getting to work. The one thing in my life that holds me back. By far the most necessary of evils, and by far the most evil.

4.16.2009

Not Lazy, Not Stupid, Just Uninterested

status
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I have a paper to turn in today. 4 hours ago actually. I'm less than 10% done.

My paper was technically due Tuesday, but the sheet said Thursday the 14th, so I went with Thursday to give myself more time.

I would have known about this if I would have gone to class last week, but I didn't.

I'm supposed to be leaving for work in 5 minutes, so I don't think I'll be able to write much more than an intro sans-thesis.

I know I'm gonna get a shitty grade on this assignment. I don't care. I know I'm paying money out of my pocket to get this shitty grade, but it's gotten to a point where I just want the class to be over with. It's boring and uneventful. We don't read anything of social value, or anything relevant. I don't care about reading Antigone. Sure it's interesting, but I want something fucked up and socially conscious. I want to discuss the writers' and his characters philosophies, not rhyme scheme in poetry. I want some Orwell among other things.

This class is pure liberal arts bullshit, served with a healthy dose of busy work and "assignments" that are not much more than us regurgitating information from lectures, sparknotes, wikipedia, and the book so we can learn about the wonders of the English language. Like my paper. I'm writing about Antigone. Nothing exciting, just regurgitating. No deep insight, no quandries, no heated argument, just skimming the surface of mediocrity.

And I'd have an A on it if I cared.

3.16.2009

La la da da da...

flip the trap
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I skip class a couple times a week now. I don't even care or feel any sort of remorse or obligation. Out of sight, out of mind I suppose. It's been a couple weeks for my bullshit LIT class, so I think I'll go tomorrow just because it's been so long.

I've been thinking of creating a pen name for myself, but make him 45 years older and have him die soon with all of his works unpublished. This way I'll be able to have a career that is entirely posthumous, yet still get the benefits of all the fame and money at the same time. Ridiculous yet awesome.

I need to get out on some sort of vacation, or at least out of my house during the daylight hours. The past couple months have been a blur of school, work, and sleep, with all of my free time and leisure taking place when it's dark out. I need to brighten up my life because it's making me slow and depressed.

I had something funny to add, but it escapes me for the moment...

1.15.2009

Just Gotta Ignore It...

>tatted up and fatted up
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As seemingly good as my life has been recently, the world itself is the same old shitty place. I can't get over how fucking much my books cost, and continue to cost me since I don't even own all of them yet. 110$ for a book I know I'll use maybe 5 times over the next 3 months. Not even 5 important times. Bullshit. The schools and book companies are gouging my wallet like no other. Their profits have to be ridiculous.

This past week at school was going pretty well for me. Good classes, nice people, decent teachers, all arranged in a tight fitting, efficient schedule. I have free time in the afternoon and actually do homework the night it's assigned all while having time to burn on my own endeavors.

Today I realized why my week was going so well - I wasn't scheduled for any of those days at work, and really, I didn't even think about that place for a second. I didn't miss it one bit. Now I realize that work is for the most part, the cause of all the stress in my life. Every night of every weekend is spent there, giving me no time to go out and see other people. Fridays, Saturdays, and Sundays are busy days, and therefore I do lots of work for long and painful shifts. Yeah, they're maybe only 6 or 7 hours, but when they last from 4pm onward the majority of your day, and the time you could be spending with others, takes place in a miserable little kitchen run by confused, miserable people. After a single shift today, I was sick of that place. I need to get out. How do the managers work 50 hours a week there? How? It's got to be soul crushing.

1.11.2009

Walkie Talkie

>that beautiful, intoxicating yellow house. and that horrendous landscaping next door...
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Yesterday, on the last full night of my little winter vacation I can honestly say that I had the most interesting, exciting, exhausting time in who knows how long. Everything I did was fun, memorable even. Imagine that.

I got off work, bundled up, and Neal and I trekked through the snow and fracturing ice to go see the fort for the first time in months.I think that only a picture can do this any sort of justice. The woods were dead and bare, but so bright with moonlight. Besides a few unidentifiable animal tracks, we were the only signs of life. It felt good to seem like the only humans on earth. I felt total disconnect from all the shit I have to see, hear, smell, think about, and deal with in my day to day affairs. Everything just melted into the snow and got left behind.

Afterwards, we met up with one of Neal's friends and her sister and wandered the neighborhood for at least an hour, just walking in the middle of the snow filled streets. It was cold, I was congested, but it was a long and good conversation with some good people.

I could have gone to bed happy, but then I got a call from Andy, my coworker, and he wanted to go sledding at Ford Field. I decided to meet up with them, even though it was already well past midnight and my legs were sore.

I ended up waiting 25 minutes at the park for them to get there, all while trying to get there as fast as possible because I figured they'd be waiting for me. I wasn't mad though, I wasn't even that annoyed, and when everyone showed up we had a blast sledding until around 2:30. Good times.

Tomorrow is my first day of classes for the new semester. I don't want to go at all. Should I?

9.18.2008

Back in Business?

>beatbox my heartbeat. untie my shoes like I did my heartstrings
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Hello world. It's been a while. My life has changed. No, my mind has changed - I just see life much differently now. My life's changed too. I guess.

I'm back into playing WoW, I play TF2 almost religiously now, and I'm only taking 9 credits in school this semester. I haven't been scheduled to work in a week. I like my classes, they are easy. I'm pretty much completely alone all day long, every day. By the time people start coming home, I'm either just starting to go to class, or have had to work. I feel insane. I think I'm starting to dislike other people around me. I'm uncomfortable. I think I'm going to start working out next week after my birthday on the 23rd.

5.09.2008

Time Escapes Me!

>robotic
>enslavement and sorrow
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It's been a goddamn month since I've written anything and I'm kinda pissed at my lack of drive to do something productive. At least I kind of accomplished some stuff like finished a semester of school with a 3.6 gpa, rearranged my room and computer stuff, and started playing CS:S. Well, I kind of started playing World of Warcraft again too. Whatever. It's summer and I need to do something.

Here are some goals I'd like to accomplish:
>make music with Julius Mode or Burlap Baby
>read a lot of literature
>work out often
>become more frugal so I'm not always dirt poor

4.10.2008

Baby Politicians

>wow, i fucking suck at css
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Today, at school, were the student government elections. What a joke. For some reason, I was 20 minutes early to class - a rare occasion. As soon as I enter the building, I'm bombarded with fliers, people talking, hand gestures, and whatever else goes along with getting people to vote for you.

Some girl I've never seen before (big surprise) walks up to me. She's running for something. Not president. I don't know, maybe senator. She asks me if I'm going to class. No shit I'm going to class, does she think I like to walk around inside college campus buildings at 9 a.m. for fun? She doesn't get the hint that I want to keep walking and would prefer it if she stayed stationary. She follows me, opens up one of her little booklets, and props it in front of me so she can show and read it to me as I walk to class. Christ!. I get rid of her by going to the bathroom, then get rid of her pamphlets by introducing them to the garbage bin.

Fortunately, I found a way to Solid Snake my way around them for the rest of the day. Mostly because of fear.

3.13.2008

Brawl!

>SSBB FOREVER
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Super Smash Brothers Brawl has completely taken over my life. I should be studying a million things right now. I should be sleeping. I could take the dog for a walk, or better yet, work out. There are books to be read, rooms to be cleaned, showers to be taken, and meals to be consumed, but KO-ing my way to victory seems to be of utmost importance at the moment.

I beat the story mode on hard mode without any help, cleared all 41 single player events, and all the multi ones with my brother. I got all the characters today and have classic beat with 6 of them. Now I just need boss rush mode done, the rest of classic, all star mode, finishing the trophy collection, sticker collection, getting that last 8% completion in the SSE, 100 man brawl, and shaping up my game for kicking other peoples asses.

There's a tournament next week at school with actual prizes and such, so I'm really psyched for that. I really want to see how I stack up to other players since no one that lived around me was very good at Melee. I think it helps that I never got too good at advanced techniques such as SHFFL and wave-dashing so the gameplay changes to Brawl don't mess with my play style as much as it will with others. Now, to go practice a bit more with good old Wario.

1.31.2008

Sub par

Traditional British Shoes
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My life is absolutely sub par as of late. Work is shitty, which is kind of unusual because I usually don't judge my work, I just take it at face value.

My classes are alright, it's just that I need to manage my time better so that I get to do something fun and productive when I have free time. I mean, I'm really starting to want to get back into art related stuff, start writing more, for fun, music, and blogging, and finally learn FL Studio so that me and my brother can get our group up and running. I don't care if anything I do goes anywhere, I just want the experience, and there's always a chance we could do something new and make a name for ourselves.

Other than that, I'm up to nothing. Besides waiting for the new Smash Brothers of course.

12.11.2007

Awesome New Stuff!

dR. dRE PRESENtS dETOX
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So, the past few days were filled with some unexpected surprises that really made me happy.

First and foremost was a trailer for a Speed Racer movie made by the Wachowski brothers. It's at speedracerthemovie.com . To be honest, I'm not expecting a hell of a lot from this movie, but I'm still excited for the whole idea.

Second, Dr. Dre apparently set his final album Detox to be released this June. I'm fucking elated. I've been waiting years for this album. As far as I'm concerned, he's the best goddamn rapper/producer out there by a long shot. And I mean a really long shot, especially with the crap that's been passing for music lately. I'll be there at midnight if at all possible to pick it up and rock out for the rest of the eternity.

Other than those, I've only got class up to this Friday and I'm off the hook for break. I beat Quake4 earlier today, so that just leaves me with completing Bioshock before Xmas if at all possible since when I get the Orange Box I'll be pretty occupied. Combine that with reading Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, plus whatever else comes my way along with stuff like Super Mario Galaxy, it should be a fun time.

12.03.2007

Pretty!

school
trying to do a goddamn paper
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So I woke up at 5:50am today to register for classes. Apparently, tomorrow is the registration date, so I get to repeat the misery all over again! I was so tired this morning that I just slept through my class from 10:20-11:10. I know it's bad, but I would have literally just slept the whole time due to exhaustion. So I woke up around 11:30, took care of stuff, and then drove to school for my art history class. It was canceled. Damn it. I forgot to check my e-mail this one time, and I go to school for nothing.

So I got to come home and type a final paper/presentation for my psychology class. It's not long, and it was a really easy paper, but of course I procrastinated until now to do it. I started typing a 3 paged, double spaced paper at around 2pm. I finished around 7:45. Needless to say I have severe ADD and a horrible StumbleUpon addiction. Some good did come from this however, which was my discovery of the Unreal Tournament 3 demo.

This game looks so pretty, it's awesome. I can max it no problem, and everything is so fast and fluid. Being a big Quake fan, I like the game play a helluva lot too. The weapons are interesting, the alternate firing modes are cool, the physics are nice, feigning death is a nice move, and some of the vehicles (like the War of the Worlds -esque one) are kickass. I'm extremely tempted to buy the full copy soon if I come across some extra money since I'm that impressed.

11.15.2007

Almost There

schoolin'
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Well, the end of the semester is almost here, and I couldn't be happier. Yeah, it really is still a couple weeks until it actually ends, but for the most part its all downhill and I couldn't be happier. I'm still looking at classes and credit hours and that sort of thing, but it's not nearly as bad as I had assumed. Plus, my grades aren't seeming too bad at this point, so maybe that time spent in Ann Arbor isn't as far off as it seemed.

Speaking of which, I'm psyched to head up there this weekend for the OSU game. I don't have tickets of course, but I like going for the "atmosphere". Naturally, that's just what I tell everyone as a sort of euphemism for getting ham dammered. Saturday will definitely be a good day, and if we win, it's definitely going to be one hell of a night as well.

Other than that, there's a new episode of "Pure Pwnage" out, and since I kind of owe it to them for helping me get excited about gaming again, I'm about to go watch it. It's a great show to begin with anyway, so I guess it's not only because of its influence on me.

10.25.2007

A week in review

[Tuesday]
fucking up harcore
shitshitshitshitshit
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Last Thursday was a pretty shitty day, mostly because of the whole "I've been working for 9 days straight" thing I had going on. I got Friday off though, which was needed beyond belief, although for all the wrong reasons. Instead of doing the "right" thing (in this case study like a mofo and do a weeks worth of review in all my other classes) I made the trip up to Ann Arbor in order to party like a fuckin' rockstar - and did I ever.

Through a bizarre twist of fate (kinda) I found myself in possession of a fifth of Everclear and a pint of Bombay Sapphire dry gin. Not counting the various drinks in the friends dorm room I was staying in, (I bought it for her, so she owed me anyway) or all the free, although shitty, beer that would be all over every party within 10 miles. Now, it's kind of been a dream of mine ever since I started reading Tucker Max to try his signature drink, the Tucker Death Mix. Made with Everclear, Lemon-Lime Gatorade, and RedBull, this stuff is literally the Special Olympics in a bottle. Combine that with the 7 or so shots I had afterwards and I was getting ready for a fun night out.

To start the night out we went to a highlighter party which was pretty fun I guess, except for the fact no one told me beforehand and I would have liked a t-shirt to write stupid shit on. I saw some random ass kid who I'm almost positive I've never met in my life and he fucking runs up to me yelling "Whats up man! How crazy seeing you here!" and giving me a high-five. I think he was the crazy one, and not the incident of us both being at this party. I played along though like a pro and we bullshit for a few minutes talking about how "random" it was seeing each other. Whatever, I'm sure it made him happy for the moment, and it makes a funny story for me.

After a while, we slowly made our way out into the street because this girls roommate wanted to go with some guy and we didn't feel like putting up with her whorish bullshit. Let her get raped, I'll still sleep fine tonight. We slowly made our way to this one frat's "Jimmy Buffet" party, which wasn't really my thing. None of his music, too crowded, and it was a total sausage fest. Oh, I wasn't too into the margaritas either, so yeah. Lastly, we went to the frat usually visited for pre-game festivities but no one was there and there was puke on the floor somewhere so we weren't too excited for that.

To end off the night, we stumbled our way to "Big Ten Burrito". The prices were more expensive than the Moe's I used to work at, and the burritos were smaller, but whatever it was 1 am and we were starving. I didn't realize until the next morning that I was somehow coaxed into paying for the burrito of the person whose dorm room I was staying in. An $11 burrito. Awesome!

Saturday Night was pretty great as well. I got off work around 10:15 or so, hung out with some friends, and then went to my ex-manager Mary's legendary birthday/Halloween party. The costumes were pretty wild, I got to see a few old friends, and they had 2 kegs of Rolling Rock, which was pretty damn sweet. Also, some guy from the Beastie Boys "Sabatoge" video was there. Random celebrities are pretty neat.

10.03.2007

Mix it up a bit

10:34
shit shitty
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Yeah, I woke up a little late today since I was planning on studying hardcore for my Art History 100-something exam today, but I ended up going on AIM, Stumble, taking a shower, and managing to get iTunes open and playing music. What's a work ethic?

Anyway, I took that test, expecting to get destroyed and embarrassed by it, but it turned out relatively easy considering the excessive amount of cramming done along with me not knowing roughly 20% of the material. Another one is coming up in less than a month, so I guess I'll see where that leads me.

In other news, I got a job making pizzas at a local restaurant at $7.50/hour, plus discounts and free stuff. The works not hard, the people are cool, the schedule seems easy enough, and the decent wage (for me at least) and free food make it awesome. My favorite part would have to be that by the time I make the 1300 or so dollars required to pay off my current semesters tuition, the new one will be starting. I'm still broke for about another few months, but whatever, I need the money, I need to to work (since I go crazy without having a job now), and I needed something to waste my time with since studying obviously isn't on that list.

10.01.2007

AFK RL

9:46am
this sucks!
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Yeah, I've been lazy lately and not updating. Life got busy, I got distracted, things (kinda) got done.

Good news: I have a job, I might be getting an iPod touch (which I've been wanting since the second I heard about it), it's raining outside, and it's October, my favorite month of the year!

Bad news: I have an exam on Wednesday, and should be studying since I know next to nothing thats going to be on it, I still owe a lot of people money, and my fucking computer is sitting there as and inconveniently large $2000 5.1 surround sound paper weight. My life needs figuring out, since I can't seem to get what I want when I want it, and what I want most is probably the farthest away and most difficult to get.

Kuh-Razy news: I started my own fraternity called "TΣT". I kind of considered it a joke of sorts since I saw fliers advertising the "Biggest Fraternity on Campus!" and wanted to make the smallest on campus with me and 2 friends. We really haven't done anything yet since it's less than a week old, but I think there are some people that seriously want a part of this. I figure "why not? what the hell!", so only time will tell how kickass this really turns out.